Why?

The father of a good friend of ours shot himself last Sunday. This week has been an emotional roller coaster. I just don't understand. I have been depressed before. I even had moments, before I turned my life around, of complete and utter dispair. Maybe because I was always such an 'approval addict', I just could never imagine doing such a thing.

Our friend was in a skiing accident about 7 years ago, and was paralyzed. A natural athlete, he never gave up. I have seen him ride a modified bike, race a go-cart...do so many things with such zeal. His father was there to help him through it every step of the way. I think his accident actually strengthened a previously weak bond with his dad.

Then his dad took his own life. We had to wait in line for over two hours at the funeral home to see the family. There were so many confused people there, waiting to pay their respects. I don't think any of us understand. But I can't help but think...if only he knew he was important to this many people.....